Edit: I had the meeting. K was there. I was so happy he showed up. The meeting wasn't as bad as I thought. Mostly getting my mom and K to understand just what mania is and how I was when I was admitted. How they could many catch the symptoms before they get too bad. I still don't see how they could do this as a lot of them are part of my normal personality! An example that was brought up was before I went inpatient, I was out at K-Mart with K. We were in the camping section. I stared, way down the isle. I threw my arms out and exclaimed, "BUY ME A THERMOS!!" He actually went and looked at the price! My mom said that she wouldn't have thought twice because this is just my personality. K also said that I also seem more manic when I asked to use his laptop more often to post on this blog. (Of course, how do you know? I'm typing on it right now!) I was prescribed about a week's worth of various drugs, none of which are new to me so I don't understand that, but I picked them up anyway. The only thing that is new is the double dose of Zyprexa and I have plenty of that left over from when I was picking up the double dose but only taking the single several months back. One thing I don't understand is that my diagnosis at discharge was bipolar 297.7 which is just "bipolar unspecified", when they specifically said I had "bipolar manic". One of the doctors said maybe one sign of mania for my friends and relatives might be if I start cleaning my room or start a bunch of projects. That wasn't what happened this time. I did blog a lot, though, and somewhere deep inside me I still believe those posts: Somewhere, I still want to buy a computer tablet. They haven't gone away. What I typed is still part of me. Still very much me.
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