Thursday, February 22, 2018

Are Our Brains Our Own?

I can't always follow a train of thought. The way my brain physically processes thoughts is rerouted. Always has been. BUT! More recently I can feel my brain working hard to retrieve even the simplest of thoughts or memories. Is it the new drug Ive been on for about 4 weeks? A friend of mine (and a former doctor of behavioral pharmacology) has said "YoU ARE your brain!"

When I take new psych meds I sometimes can feel how they are affecting my synapses- how I feel, how my thought patterns have changed,etc.

Are our brain our own? Being bipolar I don't really think so. We just borrow them from moment to moment.

Thursday, February 1, 2018

Had to go off Lamictal

I love that drug. My brain has never felt so healthy and grounded. But my pdoc took me off today.

You see, yesterday, I was driving to the bank to get the rent money. The sun was bright, shining in my car's windows. I began to feel weird. Like the sun was toxic. Like I was a vampire needing to get out of the sun- NOW! I pulled over and looked at my face in the mirror. It was purple!! I went inside the safety of the building Id parked at. I called my pdoc's office and my case manager called me back and asked me a lot of questions.

The next morning, i woke up and my face was still a deep red. I called my primary doctor. She wanyed to see me ASAP. She asked a million questions. By this time my hands were shaking horribly and I was chilled.My dr ran bloodwork an EKG. That was normal but my bloodwork isnt back yet. Primary called pdoc and told her what was goiing on and pdoc took me off lamictal. As of this writing the results aren't back yet. I see pdoc tomorrow at 930.