My pdoc called yesterday right after she got the email from my case manager about how I've been. She said I have "good insight into your symptoms". I don't think so. It's my friends- both online and in real life- who clue me in. So pdoc said I could increase Seroquel or Haldol and I picked Haldol as I have a ton of that. She said to take my regular 2.5 mg every evening as usual and then add 2-4 mg as needed for hypomania. It's the weather changes, she says. She will call next week. Thing that worries me is that I spent over $100 on photos- I had a bunch of my photos of my kids 10+ years ago printed and framed and they are now surrounding my living room- there are 11 8x10's! Don't get me wrong: They look GREAT! Even friends have said I'm a good photographer just from seeing a quick TikTok that I did of them! Anyway, pdoc said she thinks I'm hypomanic because I've been sleeping less and spending a lot of money. Lately, I've been getting up before 9:00 when previously I was getting up at 11. That's a GOOD thing! I can get up while the Spring birds are still chirping. As I type this, I'm listening to Rene Jacobs sing French songs. I guess he speaks fluent French, in addition to English and other languages. I saw a video of him teaching a couple women voice lessons- one was in French and the other was in English.
On Friday, I have my annual apartment inspection and there are a million things on the check list they sent! Some items are easy like making sure the grass is cut in addition to other outdoor issues because the apartment complex takes care of those. I'm putting things off- I don't know why. Maybe because I don't want it to get messed up again before she comes to inspect the apartment.
I miss Noah singing. Especially when he was little. I've got a black-and-white photo I took of his face while he was singing during a voice lesson that is part of my new 8x10 collage.
I went to the eye doctor a few weeks ago because it was time and I wanted contacts and a newer prescription in my glasses. So I bought a year's worth of contact lenses- the regular ones; I wanted to buy green ones which I did try on, but they didn't look cool enough to spend another $100 on. (THAT'S not a hypomanic symptom, but it was weeks ago.) My contacts came in earlier this week and my glasses came in today. (Saturday.) I hope I don't run out of contacts before our Disney trip. Oh yeah! The Disney trip! Well, if we can manage to all have the money for it. My mom is paying for a large portion of it, so it really won't be that much. Little by little sock away a few dollars here and there. Now that I just paid my AAA bill with my credit card, I have to watch to make sure I still have the money in my account to pay for that next month. Oh- and I have an appointment to get the Johnson & Johnson covid vaccine on the 19th of this month. It's not easy finding appointments! I filled out 3 online applications which told me that they were full until I went to the site Christopher used to get his vaccine. They had plenty of spots! Although, I told Karen that they had lots of spots and she said they didn't when she went on, so I don't know. There were two weeks' worth when I scheduled mine.
I've been using TikTok lately. I've found a couple people to follow that do really funny live shows. I said something in the chat and the woman I was watching last night actually answered my comment! She had at least 30 square-framed photos up behind her- all pictures of her late dog! A tribute wall. I said "I thought I had a lot of pictures of my kids!" I guess not? Perspective, right? I also have watched a couple live streams on TikTok of this guy named "UncleMike75". He is younger than me by only a few years. He is really funny! Both in his live streams and in his regular TikTok videos. He is from South Carolina and I just love his accent. He is very popular. There were over 2,500 people in his chat last time I watched one!
Speaking of how old people are, I had my birthday a few weeks ago. The big 49. Next year will be the REALLY big one! Especially for my mom- her birthday is the day before mine- as she will be 75!
My psych case manager made an appointment for the week after next to come to my apartment and have an appointment, I guess. I don't know what's wrong with the office? I don't know what we'll talk about except whether or not I'm still hypomanic.
So my town is under a big warning about covid- apparently we have a huge number of cases in both zip codes of the city. So I'm going to try to stay home as much as I can. I have to go to the grocery store though, but today is Saturday and I'm sure the grocery store will be packed. Sunday is worse! What's weird is that I don't think they've changed the rules about dining out or saying that people need to stay home. Just a news article from a local radio station telling us this.
Well I'm really hungry- it's time for lunch and I've missed breakfast, but I did have a Starbucks Italian Cold Brew coffee this morning. We'll see what there is to eat here. I'm almost out of milk and Caleb would say that is a national emergency! He says I always get milk when I'm at the grocery store and its a tragedy when I run out.
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