Lost

I had to find my way home after church because i parked in a lot with lots of construction. Google maps took me a crazy way home but I figured it out. N3 is at church- theyre having an out day- coffee shop, movie, lunch. So I have to go back to church to pick him up later. Only one person- the priest- asked me how I am. I havent been to choir in ages. I just said , "I have bipolar disorder..." And left it at that. I dont even know what my deal is. I just dont want to do anything. Id rather sleep. But once Im up i still dont want to be whereever I am. Right now Im at my mom's house and nobody knows Im here. I like nobody knowing where I am. I used to do that in my 20s- take off from work and "get lost". It was thrilling to me.