Blank

My memory is like a sieve. Long-term about my childhood is fine but not this. I cant go from moment to moment tracking my thoughts a lot of the time. This makes it difficult to function because I have to back track a lot and in fact that is how I function: with a running trail of back-tracks of checking on if I did this or that. All of this is (usually) subconscious. My thoughts are also stilted. I feel blank and cant bring up any congrete thoughts. It just makes me feel blank.