Soon it Will be Gone

I was just put with a friend. We went to a store. I saw a thermos. Instantly, I exclaimed "But me a thermos!!" He thought about it and declined. Whatever. Then we went back to the coffee shop and he didn't want to sit with me anymore. I'm sad. Mad. Everything is crystal clear. I should maybe go the psych ER but I'm not. I tell you what: mania isn't always a happy feeling. Energy flows through me and I feel I must scream and jump and say anything that comes to mind. My filter is going. Soon it will be gone.