Showing posts with label singing. Show all posts
Showing posts with label singing. Show all posts

Saturday, January 21, 2023

It’s Been a Year!

 It’s been a year since I last posted!  

The year was ok in general.  But 3 months ago I saw my voice specialist.  Last time I’d seen him was 4 years ago.  I still can’t sing past C above middle C and on that particular day last October I was getting over a cold so I could sing down to the C below middle C.  This is exactly a tenor’s range!

The voice specialist had me read a short story while he was making a video of my vocal cords.  He compared it to the exact same thing from 4 years prior. I had zero memory that I’d read that very same story before but I had.  

In his notes, the voice doctor noted the tremor in my hands and wrote that my voice now has a tremor! I showed these notes to my primary doctor and to my Pdoc.  Pdoc decided to take me off Haldol and the cogentin that was supposed to be for side effects from the Haldol.  The cogentin I’d taken myself off because it gave me such a dry mouth! 

Now I’ve been off Haldol for a couple of weeks and I can’t tell if my voice has a quaver in it or not because I couldn’t hear it in the first place.  Maybe if was from the cold I was getting over at the time.  Or maybe it really was the Haldol.  

Pdoc also put me on Ativan for akathisia.  I take it twice a day.  

Hallucinations wise, I haven’t had any except maybe today when I thought I saw someone standing nearby our table at a restaurant but they vanished right before I turned my head up to get a proper look.

This is my update for now.  I guess no one reads this except my dad and my friend in Florida.






Monday, November 15, 2021

Lucid Choir Dream

 I was productive today.  I got laundry including sheets cleaned.  I watered the plants.  My kitchen trash can was completely covered in black mold on the inside so rather than disturb it I bought a new trash can.  I will give this one a squirt of bleach every so often to avoid having this happen again.


Last night, I was watching a lessons and carols service by an English choir - made up of boys (pre-puberty) and young men.  (College age.). It made me feel like I was singing with them in my head and that felt good since I haven't been able to sing in real life for a couple years now.  Then LAST NIGHT, I dreamed I was in a boarding school with the boys and we were all singing together!  And what makes it even better is that I KNEW I was dreaming so I could enjoy the dream all the more!

Thursday, August 5, 2021

O Dulce Voice

 O dulce

Dulce voice

Call to me

Again! And again!

You who soothes

My inner self

Does show my fate.


Held captive

Inside

To hear you

Demands marked free

O call again to me.


You art my fate

My love

My whole existance!


O cry!

Cry to the gods

Up to my soul

Full to mine tears

A deluge of sorrows!


O sweet!

O demands!

O persuasive!

You my voice

Turned inward

A mind of your own

Round my mind

Singing your acrid tunes!


Your wiley voice

As mine

Over-ebullient

To raise my demise

To full sorrows

Black, rounded beings!


O sorrows bleak

All my tears weak

Hear you O strange one

Never mind those pills

Orange and small

They are for fools!

So you say-


Take them!

Take them!

Take them!


Violent voices demand

It's okay-

Just do it!


The voices of angels sing to me

A cacophony raised to terrible heights!


Or are they angels?

Who knows?

Those demands so strong-

Inviting along...


O dulce

Dulce voice

Call to me

Again!  And again!

You who soothes

My inner self

Does show my fate. 

Monday, February 22, 2021

While Day is Done

 O Sweetness

My love

My jewel!

Your forehead I kiss

Singing to your bliss


Wand'ring round

We go up and down

That path so curved

Where all your cares be served


Wond'ring how

Your pains were eased

All your tumult be ceased


O Sweetness

O Love

O Joy!

Singing thy peace

My Dear, sweet babe

Your contentedness may never cease.

Sweet slumber

Dear rest

In ease

I sing you this song

While day is done.

Tuesday, October 24, 2017

A little Fun!

Singing crickets

A recording of crickets in 1992 was slowed down to human speed. The results are amazing! Enjoy!