Am I?

I feel like nobody cares about me. I called my psych. dr.'s office and they said they would page her as she's not in the office. Hours later, I call back and its the same deal: She's not in the office. I called the psych. ER and they suggested I call my psych dr. back or if it gets worse come to the psych. ER! What a pat answer. I want to cry. I'm tired. I'm so tired. Its tiring going this far for this long. Feeling normal yet feeling like something is very very wrong. Am I making all of this up? Am I? Have I done this just to amuse my stupid, sick brain? I wish I were back at that balcony.