Saw psych nurse practitioner

 Saw my psych nurse practitioner this morning.  She put me on Caplyta (Lumateperone).  I can’t pick it up until tomorrow morning because the pharmacy had to order it.   We’re weaning off Rexulti- guess she thought it wasn’t working anymore.  I did take a shower which has improved my outlook although I am still having the intrusive thoughts about stabbing myself. (NP asked if I had a plan and I said no.  Hence why I’m not in the psych ER right now.).   I did, however, take a survey of which knives I have and found the “best” one, although I did not take it out of the drawer.