Are Our Brains Our Own?

I can't always follow a train of thought. The way my brain physically processes thoughts is rerouted. Always has been. BUT! More recently I can feel my brain working hard to retrieve even the simplest of thoughts or memories. Is it the new drug Ive been on for about 4 weeks? A friend of mine (and a former doctor of behavioral pharmacology) has said "YoU ARE your brain!"

When I take new psych meds I sometimes can feel how they are affecting my synapses- how I feel, how my thought patterns have changed,etc.

Are our brain our own? Being bipolar I don't really think so. We just borrow them from moment to moment.

Trileptal Side Effects

List of side effects of Trileptal

A good basic article

A Good Basic Article on Bipolar Disorder

Had to go off Lamictal

I love that drug. My brain has never felt so healthy and grounded. But my pdoc took me off today.

You see, yesterday, I was driving to the bank to get the rent money. The sun was bright, shining in my car's windows. I began to feel weird. Like the sun was toxic. Like I was a vampire needing to get out of the sun- NOW! I pulled over and looked at my face in the mirror. It was purple!! I went inside the safety of the building Id parked at. I called my pdoc's office and my case manager called me back and asked me a lot of questions.

The next morning, i woke up and my face was still a deep red. I called my primary doctor. She wanyed to see me ASAP. She asked a million questions. By this time my hands were shaking horribly and I was chilled.My dr ran bloodwork an EKG. That was normal but my bloodwork isnt back yet. Primary called pdoc and told her what was goiing on and pdoc took me off lamictal. As of this writing the results aren't back yet. I see pdoc tomorrow at 930.

Mixed Episode- Strange Feelings

A couple days ago, I was at the store. An unfamiliar feeling befell me: my eyes began to tingle then my nose and a tear rolled down next to my nose. Simultaneously I began to grin widely and laugh at myself.

Lamictal Happiness - 22 Days

Side effects from lamictal after almost a month: Telling people randomly that i love them.enthousiastically. (I did know them). Memory hugely increased. I can follow a trail of thoughts and even pause it! Lastly i woke up today feeling GOOD! Just internally wonderful like my whole body could breathe. It was better than mania.

Finally off Zyprexa!!

My pnurse called today to straighten out my meds because the pharmacy was confused about what some of my doseages were supposed to be.

She asked what id been taking in terms of zyprexa. I said half a 2 1/2 for quite a while. "So you've basically weaned yourself off' she replied. "Let's keep it that way." I was so happy to finally hear these words! She then said to keep all other (psych) meds the same. Baby steps. I am happy!