Anxiety Day 4

I'm still anxious. My younger two kids went off with their friends after school yesterday. Oh sure they called and asked if they could but didn't say it was a half day or where they'd actually be! The youngest managed to get himself miles away! (I ended up crying in the parking lot at the grocery store I was worn out.) Luckily, my children's grandfather went and picked him up and all was well but my nerves were shot. It's been four days of anxiety now. Pdoc upped my zyprexa to 7.5 from 5 again but it hasn't helped really. Talking to friends has helped for the moment. I just feel like the world will come crashing down any second. Imagine what I posted last entry but almost all day long. It hasn't gone away. I'm ok at the moment because I'm at Starbucks reading. (Helps get my mind off things; that, plus the din of Starbucks.) We will see what Pdoc says if she calls me back.