Want Hospitalization

I know im depressed now. I just cant do this. Today i came home to paperwork on my door from the landlord. I have two other sets to do. Im so overwhelmed!!! And now N3 missed piano AND play practice by refusing to go! Hes going to be fired from the play Im sure. This is the last week of rehearsals too.  hes just laying in bed and wont say more than one syllable words. Im at my wit's end!! My case manager said shed help me with the paperwork but so far she hasnt called me back. I want to go IP but that would probably make everything worse. I mean look at my ******* signature- all those episose close together! Im at a breaking point.



Most recent episodes:

Paranoia
(September, 2018)

Manic
(July\August, 2018)

Hypomanic
(July, 2018)

Psychotic
(June, 2018)

Manic
(September, 2016)